Out in the office

Being out in the workplace is never a good idea. Still, I have always harboured the hope of coming out at work because once a person is out, it's quite difficult to go back into the closet.

But from the looks of it, it can never happen. Or at least, not in my current workplace.

Now, most sometimes I am quite gayish and all, but I am just being me and doing things that are comfortable for myself.

For example, I wear sneakers to work and change into leather shoes when I arrive at the office. It's more comfortable to walk in the former as there is quite a bit of walking to get to work and back.

When someone saw me changing into my leather shoes, the person said "Like a girl only."

Just today, I was chatting with my colleagues and one of them mentioned he wanted to go to Siam Reap, where the Angkor Wat is located. One of them asked me whether I would go as I don't look like the type which can rough it out.

Which reminded me of this incident last year.

Anyway, I said I love to do things I have never done.

"Would you go bungee jump or skydiving?"

"I would like to, even though at the last second, I may be rooted on the platform and needed someone to kick from behind to fall off the edge."

"I like to do everything once."

One of them laughed out loud and pretended to be afraid, while giving me a leer said, "I am scared yer ... "

Now, this guy has always teased me about female-related characteristics, like he would asked whether I wanted to hold his hands or not, or go to the bathroom together, that sort of thing.

By the way, he's married. And kinda cute and fair.

Obviously, I asked him what did he find so funny.

He replied, "You said you would do anything once, would you sleep with a guy?"

In my mind, I was like "I would and I already do and it won't be just once and you don't know what you've been missing."

So I said, "You think I would do it with you? Don't flatter yourself."

He continued, "No, but even with other guys .... that's just gross. Ee yer ..."

I wanted to roll my eyes, but that would be such a give-away, no?

Just yesterday, another colleague was saying that she has a friend who can dance very well and quite good looking. Too bad he is gay.

My response was, what's so bad about it? You mean you would have dated him if he was straight?

She said yeah.

Needless to say, out of all the people in the office, she seems most OK with gays. Which is not saying much, as she is a Charismatic (I have always thought that it means a personal quality) Christian and is not very open either.

Oh well.